diary entry 1

masaya ang araw na to., la gaanong class.. hehehe..^^ la rin ung teacher namin sa english., pero kahit na ganun we still felt her presence coz she left us with lots of activities.. haaayyy.. masyadong masipag si mam.. walang patawad., minsan na nga lang umabsent eh talagang she makes sure na walang oras na nasasayang at walang araw na dadaan na wala kaming natutunan.. saludo ako kay mam.. hehehe..

try-out din ngaun sa iba't ibang sports sa school for the coming intrams.. we watced basketball and., and., and., matatangkad sila that's all.. hehehe.. obviously., all of the teams didn't have unity.. because it is the first time the players met and they too lack cooperation.. they didn't plan their strategy.. what i saw in the players is their extreme determination to pass the try-out.. wala ng pakialam sa iba basta makapasa.. sinosolo ang bola.. haiztz., kung ganyan rin lang they should rather play one on one..

in the later part of the day., umulan., umulan ng malakas., umulan ng matagal.. kumanta kami in order to kill time and para hindi kami ma-bore.. we believe na humihina ung ulan pagkumakanta kami.. hehehe.. wala kaming pakialam kahit na pinagtitinginan na kami ng mga estyudante na nagda-date sa tabi ng tindahan nila ashley.. at dahil ata sa napakaganda naming boses ay napapatigil sila sa kanilang paglaloving-loving.. kinanta namin ang mga kanta ng eraserheads at mga sabog na kanta ni michael v. .. masaya na sana., kaso nabasa ung sapatos ko at medyo nabasa din ako nung papauwi na..

masaya din kasi nakita ko si toooooot., oopps secret ko lang un.. hehehe.. pero nakakainis., dahil i just got rid of some annoying person then here comes another one.. he is more than annoying., he is exasperating.! just the look of his face makes me feel., grrrr.!

ok end na., antok na ako eh.. it's been a long tiring day.. hehehe.. and i haven't got enough sleep yet.. kea babush na.. :]

sci camp hang over

waaaaahhhhh., buti na lang alang paxok ngaun..haiztz.. bangag pa rin ako na galing ng sci camp..hahahaha..grabe naman kz.. wla pa atang one hour ung tulog ko nung first night..hahahaha.. kea ngaung maghapon ang gnawa ko lang ay matulog.! yehey.! mabuhay ako.! lol

lead + er + ship

leadership

leadership is when a big ship is followed by a little ship in the vast ocean - adrian clark d. perez

there are four kinds of leaders..

• democratic leader - chosen by the people., and his decision is for the good of the people
• autocratic - he will be the only one who have absolute authority
• laissez-fare* - he will let his members to do what they want
• vanguard leader - a leader who can balance the strengths and weak points of a group.. he knows when to be a democratic., autocratic and a laissez-fare* leader..

*corrected. from lazy fare to laissez-fare. sorry my bad..

i lived the emo life and left it

Emo ako dati.. pramis.. i always cry at night. Im always crying but i dont really know exactly why. It's just that there are so many things that I can't understand. I just cry. I still remember., that im so confused.. im so confused about life., confused about everything. I seems like i don't know who I am., i feel like everyone hates me., that all the things that i did were wrong.. i think that no one loves., understands and cares for me.. Nagpakaloko-loko ako., kala ko kasi sasaya ako., pero hindi. Umiyak pa rin ako ng umiyak. It's not only once that i thought of ending my life., but good thing., i remembered that it won't solve any problem and will just make things worse(mahal na kasi ang mamatay ngaun). My parents are not here., they are working in UAE., which made me more lonely., lonely until now. During those "emo" times i didn't do well in school., i made a lot of mistake., and i hated myself. Because i was so emo at that time., i made that(the pic overthere). I was also inspired by a qoute that i found here in the net and made my own..

Nobody loves me
Nobody likes me
Nobody knows me
Nobody understands me
Nobody's here for me
Nobody knows how i feel
Nobody cares
Nobody wants me
Nobody misses me
WILL YOU BE NOBODY?

I think it's really a part of being a teenager.. bcoz now., some of my friends are experiencing it. I want to help them., help them overcome that sadness., that feeling of being unwanted., and the feeling of being alone.

Also during that time., i was blinded by my sadness and forgot about many important things. I forgot that im not alone. Let's say that i don't have friends., but God is here. He is always willing to help., just rely to Him. It is in the Bible that God knows us better than we do., He too understands us. Believe in Him and pray., say to Him all your anxieties., and He will help. God is always willing to help those that are in need. One thing more., your friends and family are there., they won't leave you. We are here for you. Tell me., i'll do my best to help you. You can also talk about these things to your 'rents or someone who's older.If you cant., your friends are there. Tell them., share with them all of your happiness and sadness. That's what friends are for., right.Open up your heart to someone whom you know will be willing to listen., to help and will understand you.
You also have to trust people and believe in yourself. Dont belittle yourself., dont hate the whole world. Just smile., face each challenge or trials in your smile with a smile in your face. Believe that you can pass it all. Dont be pessimist., be optimistic. And my favorite quote says: Stand up for what you believe in., even if it means standing alone. If you think you are right., then go., it's fine as long as it doesn't hurt others. Enjoy life. Those failures are part of growing up. Those even shapes us to a better person., and we will be able to learn and understand things better. Be strong too., you know i face all of these alone but with the help of God.

P.S.
hindi ako nagdamit na parang emo..wala..basta..umiiyak lang ako..hehehe..i also read articles that concerns teens., how to cope up with the problems that teens bear.. a book published by Jehovah's Witnesses entitled "Young People Ask., Answers that work" contains., the frequently asked questions and problems of teens..and it helped me a lot too.!

panalo si pacquiao.!

panalo si pacquiao.. haiztz., pinatumba nya ang sugatang si diaz sa 9th round..hayy naku.. expect to have a hero's welcome again..hmnnnn..gagastosan na naman yan..buti na lang hindi na si atienza ang mayor ng manila., kung hindi., super engrande na naman ang pagwelcome sa kanya..sus., kikita na naman si pacman nyan..madadagdagan na naman ang mga commercials and advertisements na bida xa..buong week din siguro na puro pacquiao ang laman ng mga balita., sa tv., radio at dyaryo..haiztz..nakaksawa na..hindi naman matatapos ang mga krisis na kinakaharap ng bansa natin dahil sa kanya eh..hmmnnn..siguro sisisid sya sa pinaglubugan ng mv princess of the stars or baka tutulong xa sa mga kaanak ng mga pasahero ng lumubog na barko..para may exposure xa..hahahaha..

pacquiao vs diaz

haiztz., laban ni pacquiao and diaz ngaun.. di pa tapos ang laban pero preni-predict na ng mga iba ang resulta..lahat napatigil nung laban na..iisa lang ang tanong ng marami., sino kaya ang mananalo.? pero sa akin ang tanong ko., kelan kaya matatalo si pacquiao.?
before., i enjoy watching boxing., but now., ayaw ko na.. they are fighting there for their own glory., some maybe for money., some for fame., for themselves or for others., or maybe it's their dream to be a boxer.. but why do they consider pacquiao as a hero.?
heroes are brave., of course.. Pacquiao is brave too., cause he need great courage so he can face his opponents.. but it doesn't mean., he's a hero already..he entered boxing cause he want to.. nakikipag-suntukan xa jan para sa purpose nya.. do you get my point.? kumbaga ba eh kailangan talaga sa career nya yang braveness na yan..pero hero ba xa talaga.? he's admired., yes he is.. kasi magaling xa., naipapanalo nya mga laban nya and somehow nai-aangat ang mga Pilipino sa buong mundo pero ano.. does he do something to help his countrymen.? he tried politics., pero unfortunately natalo xa.. buti na lang at may mga tao pa ring mulat., na hindi nabulag ng kasikatan nya.. boxer xa., anung alam nya sa politics di ba..
he's a millionare., but i haven't heard him having charity works or whatsoever.. he gives our country entertainment., and glory..period..un lang..

1st yr reps election

hahahaha.. election na sa monday..haiztz..kakapagod maging COMELEC..hahahaha..takbo dito., takbo doon.. mahirap makipaghabulan sa teachers., mag gupit ng ballots., makipag-usap sa mga bata.. basta mahirap lahat..hahahaha..medyo late pa kaung uuwi..kanina nga ung sa SPA., mga lokong bata mga un., hahahaha.. ang sasama ng ugali..kala mo kung cnu..hay naku..pa-english english pa ung isa mejo mali naman....haiztz..kainiz..hehehehe..pero ok lang yan..smile pa rin..pinaxok namin eh..hehehehe..kasama talaga sa trabaho yan.. pero masaya..hahahahaha..tawa kami ng tawa..mga sabog kasi mga kasama namin eh..hahahaha..or should i say., sabog kz kame.. hahahaha..
isa sa mga nakakatawa eh ung mga pangalan ng parties nila.. may Fab 4 na nga may Fantastic 4 pa.. may Kabataan partylist at meron ding Kabataan ang Pag-asa ng Bayan(KPB)..my mala warfreaks hehehe., jowk; First.com "tira tira" at Indestructible Freshmen..eto ang pinakamatindi.. HYPER BEAM PARTYLIST.!!!! oh ha.! cge cnung lalaban.?? ha.? ha.? hehehehehe..lagot kau jan.. i ha-hyperbeam nila kau..hehehehe..jowk..
my shocking revelation pala akong nalaman.. hehehehe..under din pala ng ssg ung mag school organs.?! haiztz.. ibig sabihin if nasa ssg ka hindi ka pwedeng sumama sa school organ.. :'(

i want to be a psychologist

Only God can see the heart of a person.. We people in the other hand., can only see the outer covering of a person., while God can see everything. It is also said in the bible that God knows us better than we do. I'm not God., i cant look inside the heart of someone., but atleast i want to know what's inside the mind. That's why i want to be a psychologist. Like in my past post a person only shows what he/she wants to show., then if im a psychologist., maybe somehow i can interpret what he/she shows., and maybe i will know or discover the true self of that person. I can also help those people with problems. My social skills will also develop in this career.

Gusto ko nang mag-COLLEGE.!!!

excursion

We went to the municipal library this day to look for a certain assignment. I was amazed to know that such library exist in our town. For i haven't heard that our town actually owns one. When we arrive there., guess what., it's just a story high building it's like that it's been built in the the 1920's. Inside., wow., hindi ako nagkamali. Hehehe., mukha talaga xang ginawa nung 1920's pa.
Ung mga books sa shelf., if i-checheck mo ung sa copyright page nya., 1950 pa. Nandun din ung pics ng mga Mayors ng Manaoag., since 1910 ata un hanggang 1985., after nun., wala na. Hmmnnn., ang napansin ko naman., ung mga naunang mayors eh Don. Sosyal no.? hehehehe..
Nandun rin ung 1 sa mga original copies ng Noli me Tangire., pati ung 1st meeting sa CAMARA andun., naka-record sa isang libro. Maluwang sa library., kz wala naman gaanung libro., puro luma. Tapos marami ding mga books na nakatambak lang sa isang sulok. Haiztz., basta., di ko ma-explain. The only thing that caught my attention., is ung sa student log book. Ilang pages un., na iisang tao lang ung nakasulat.. everyday xa dun., ndi lang once., kundi twice., minsan thrice pa nga eh.. astig xa., grabe.. astig..di ko malilimutan name nya..John Nathaniel L. Ramirez.. Kung cnu ka man., astig ka..hehehehehe

3rd year na ako.!

time flies to fast..i didn't even notice., that im already a junior.! nyakz.. talagang nagulat na lang ako..3rd year na pala kami.. isip bata pa rin kasi kami eh..mga sabog pa rin..hehehe..pero medyo nag-matured na rin kami..ng konti..konti lang..hahahaha..

ang dami naming math ngaun., precaluculus., statistics., trigonometry at college algebra..hehehe..wala pa jan ang chemistry at physics..haiztz., akala ko nung una sasabog utak ko..pero nung nagstart na kami., waw.! ang sayang mag-aral.. naiintindihan ko ung mga lessons..hehehe..lalo na ung sa college algebra..secret lang natin to ha..pero mas gusto ko si sir ali kaysa si mam valdez..mas naiintindihan ko kasi mga lessons namin..

mahirap maging SSC pero masaya..hahaha..maganda., magandang matuto.. and sa class kasi namin magkakapatid ang turingan naming lahat..hehehe..sige next tym ulet..kelangan ko pa magpaint eh., hehehe

confusions

all this time., im confused with stupid thoughts of mine..

• i want to be friends with everybody but i dont know if they want me to be their friend.. just like casper., i want to have friends everywhere..but i dont know if they like me to be their friend or not..

• the things that are right to us might be wrong for others.. the things that we believe to be true or to be right are wrong for others..just like divorce.., it is not implemented here in the Philippines., for marriage to us Filipinos is sacred and it shouldn't be broken that easy..but in the US., divorce is legal to them..

• you claim that you know that person but actually not.. all a person can see is what does the person shows., the only things that the person wants to show.. we., somehow can read his mind., but not his heart..a person might not show his true self to you.. you believe that his a good person but deep inside his not..

• truths can be lies.. a person can say anything.. there are some persons who are saying lies just to make you happy., rather than saying the truth to make you cry..

so you see., im having doubts about persons.. i don't trust somebody right away.. until i prove that they are worthy of my trust..you may think that im mean.. but it's just that i dont want to be hurt..i have had enough pain..
but i want to change., and as my fave saying or qoute says that "stand for what you belive in., even if it means standing alone".. so i want to trust people..i want to be friends with everybody..i want to believe that they want me to be their friend too..that people are true to themselves., says the truth., show his true self..and that they wouldn't hurt other persons.. i will believe and i will trust you..

reverted back to the old me

haiztz..bumalik na naman ako sa dati kong sarili..ang sobrang tamad na bata na hindi inienjoy ang buhay..talagang tinatamad ako ngaun..hehehe..malapit na kasi ang pasukan kaya un siguro..tamad naman talaga ako pag pasukan na eh..

cosme.bagyo.kaya.maraming.nasira.part.tu.

umuulan. malakas ang hangin. walang ilaw. mga 5 or 6 pm pa lang ata nun nung masira ung bahay ng kapitbahay namin. isang malakas na hangin lang, booom! wasak. wala na silang bubong, basa ang mga gamit nila, pati sila basa.

hindi pa ganun kalakas ung hangin at maaga pa ng umpisahan na tawagin ng aking mga housemates sila. pero ayaw nila umalis eh, actually ung anak lang naman ung ayaw umalis at ung nanay nya eh wala ng nagawa kundi sundin ang anak, baka may mawala daw sa mga malabundok na gamit nila. tawag kami ng tawag sa kanila, pero mukhang sound proof ata ang kanilang bahay inside and out, kaya parang wala silang naririnig. nagaalala na si lola ko nun, pero ala talaga eh, ayaw nilang lumipat sa bahay. ang nasaisip ko nung mga sandaling un eh, parang hayaan nyo na sila jan, lam nyo naman si ate dalin di ba.? hindi nya iiwan yang beloved na bahay nila..mamaya tignan nyo pag nasira yan, tatakbo din xa dito. at nagsawa din ang lola ko sa kakatawag sa kanila. ilang sandali pa, ganun nga ang nangyari. dumaan ang isang malakas na hangin, kablag! wala na ung bubong nila, pati ung balcon at kusina nila sira na rin pala. nagagalit na dun si lola ko, inaalala ko nga eh baka mahyper tension. tapos inuuna pa ni ate Dalin ung mga gamit nila kesa ke Chaps(shortened form ng Cha Piling). tapos nung makalabas sila eh iniwan pa nya si Chaps. haiztz. grabe un.

ready na sana kaming matulog ng humangin ulit ng malakas. tapos may narining kaming natumbang puno at isang malakas na pagbagsak. tapos isang segundo pa eh sumisigaw na sina ate karen. waaaaaahhh! nagpanic na ako nun. ako kasi ung unang nakarinig sa kanila. tapos may sinasabi sila pero dahil malakas ang ulan at may bumagsak nga eh ang akala ko nagaalala sila sa amin kaya sinabi ko Okey lang kami. ilang beses un ng marealize kong ang sinasabi pala nila eh Silewan yo kami pa(ilawan nyo nga kami). nagpanic na naman ako. tapos napatakbo ako sa may pintuan namin at nadulas pa ako. andito na rin sila sa bahay kasi nilipad din pala ung bubong nila. hanggang ngaun eh andito parin sila sa bahay kasi ginagawa na ung bahay nila. marami ring nakakatawa na ngyari nun eh..hehehehe. tapos one week din na niloloko ako nina ate karen at ate kat. hehehehe. pero masaya. ngaun nasa kanya kanya na nilang trabaho silang dalawa.

noong bagyo., ang mga matatanda naging bata.. ang mga bata ang naging mga matatanda..ang mga astig natakot..ang mga matatapang napaiyak..ang mga tamad sumipag(ako un)..ang mga hindi naguusap, nagusap.. ang mga di nagbabasa ng libro, napabasa.. ay mayroon din wala lang..ganun pa rin..

pagnadapa tau, tatayo at tatayo rin tau. ginagawa na ngaun ung bahay nila ate karen.. at ung bahay ni na ate dalin eh inayos na rin.. pang temporary lang ung ginawa sa kanila.. kasi hinihintay pa ung tulong na mangagaling daw sa pamahalaan.. haiztz..kelan kaya un darating.? buti na lang nanjan ang mga nagvolunteer para ayusin ung bahay nila..

cosme.bagyo.kaya.maraming.nasira.

last april 17 ay nanalasa ang bagyong cosme dito sa pangasinan, sa la union at sa benguet..wow dude grabe ang tindi.! ang lakas ng hangin, sumisipol. sa loob lang ng isang gabi, marami ng nasira..maraming ang nilipad ang bubong..kasama na dun sina lola ko at iba pang mga kapitbahay. maraming natumbang puno..ung mga iba nabuwal pa nga eh. sa kalsada, maraming nakahinggang poste ng kuryente, mala-spaghetti na mga kable, mga sanga ng puno at mga bubong.

ang pinakanahit dito sa pangasinan eh ang dagupan..hindi lang dagupan..basta dun sa west pangasinan. halos lahat ng mga bahay nawalan ng bubong, kung di man buong bubong eh, xempre partly lang. may mga casualties din, may nabagsakan ng puno, may natamaan ng lumilipad na bubong, atbp.


marami man ang nasira may mga good effects naman..

1. mapapalitan na ng bagong bubong ang mga nilipad
2. magiging bagong bahay na ang mga nasirang mga bahay
3. mapapalitan na ang mga gamit na nabasa
4. may mga garage sale or nagpapahingi ng mga gamit
5. mas naging close ang mga family members sa isa't isa
6. nauuso ang bayanihan
7. ang mga magkakaaway ay nagtulungan(sana/siguro/ewan)
8. ang mga tamad ay tumulong sa mga gawain(yahoo!)
9. lalaki ang muscle ng mga nagiigib..
10. kikita ang mga nagbebenta ng kandila, pagkain, mineral water, etc.
11. maraming mabo-bote landok(mas kilala sa tawag na junk shop)
    
12. marami ang nanalig muli sa Diyos
    

bad effects

1. maraming bubong na nilipad
2. maraming tahanan ang nasira
3. maraming gamit na nabasa
4. may mga mawawalan ng gamit
5. maraming gagawin at aayusin, kaya di pwede ang tatamad tamad
6. lalaki ang muscle ng mga babaeng nagiigib
7. walang ilaw at tubig
8. walang computer, tv, at radio
   
9. may mga baha at landslide
10. maraming puno ang natumba at nabuwal
11. may mga naninisi sa Diyos

nung bagyo ay marami akong nasaksihang mga pangyayari. may mga nalungkot, may tumatawa, may umiyak, may natakot, may natuwa, at mayroon ding dedma lang. pero kahit na ganito ang ngyari, masaya pa rin ang mga pilipino, nakangiti pa ring hinaharap ang buhay.

operation come come paradise

matagal na naming pinagplaplanuhan na mag-outing ng family ko., para naman makapag unwind kami sandali..ang napagkasunduan nga that we are going to the beach..hehehehe..dapat sana dun sa hometown ng asawa ng tita ko., dun sa rabon somewhere in san fabian..parang di pa nga maxadong naabot ng civilization ung place na un eh..hehehehe..dun sana kasi we've been there for many times na and magandang mag fishing dun..hehehehehe...pero kanina., gumawa kasi ako ng bago kong photo album sa friendster., tapos inupload ko dun ung mga shots ko., eh ung title nya "shots ko" lang..di ba., napaka walang dating..kaya im thinking sana of possible title na mas catchy..tapos naisip ko tuloy come come paradise na lang..hehehehe..kaya lang di naman paradise ung mga shots kong un..kaya.! i took advantage of our coming outing..hehehe..xempre ginamit ko ang aking convincing powers and konting bola..tapos pumayag naman sila., na instead of rabon eh sa bolinao na lang.. mas maganda naman ng 100% more ang bolinao kaysa sa rabon no..a true paradise..and boracay of the north sabi nga., because of the white sand beaches..hehehehe.. nakaset ung outing namin next next week..all i have to do now is to buy lots and lots of battery for my cam..wahahahaha..excited na ako.!

the world is constantly changing

the world is constantly changing., along with it is me.. i kept changing..im really very twisted., just like what i said earlier on my previous post that i've been taking quizzes in blogthings.com..i took those quizzes that i have already taken before., and guess what., the results were totally different from the first time that i took those tests.. as long as i could remember., i think that i took those tests last december or january., think so.. im afraid that maybe i completely lost my true self..

probably no one would really understand me.,

human guinea pig

haiztz..sawang sawa na ako..lagi na lang pinageexperimentohan ung hair ko..grrrr.! nakakainis.. before ung parang hair ni mariel na lyk ethel booba..haiztz..nakakainis..maxadong agaw attention..as in talaga dati..lahat na lang ata ng tao tinatanong., anong gupit yan ading...? ang ganda ah..(sabay ngiti)..argh! feeling ko reverse psychology ung sinasabi nila..tapos almost 1 month ata akong pinagtritripan ng mga classmates ko dahil dun..waaaaaahh.! marami pang mga pangaasar ang naranasan ko nun..

then the other day..my mom decided to have us a hair cut..while on our way..
mom: san ka nagpagupit..?
ako: ah dun sa ano..
mom: dun ba., cge dun na tau magpapagupit..
ako: ok., pero wala na dun ung naggupit sa akin., lumipat na xa..
mom: san.?
ako: dun (sabay turo)
mom: oh di dun na lang tau..!

dapat ata di ganun sinabi ni mama eh..ganito..
mom: ok c'mon kids..charge.!

just like that..hehehehe..so balik tau..pagkarating namin sa parlor..parang nasa ibang dimension ako., ewan ko pero if ibang planeta na pala un..at may roong mga alien dun na kulay green(bakla)..at may mga bihag silang mga kawawang tao na unti unti na ring nagiging alien(mga customer).. nakita pa nga namin kung pano nila itransform ung mga tao into aliens..first inilulublob nila sila sa tubig..tapos inumpisahan na nila silang gupitan..tapos meron silang parang baril na naglalabas ng init kaya nagiging human bbq na sila..ung mga iba., kinukulayan., ginagawang mummy ung ulo tapos itatapat sa nakataob na batsa..at marami pang iba..hehehe..joke lang..balik na tau..

ung nagupit sa akin dati un din ung naggupit sa akin ngaun..and bcoz i dont know what will be my gupit., the bakla asked my mom..

bakla: mommy ano gupit nya.? *wink* *wink*
mom: basta paiklian mo lang..fgsdfgsdfgdfgdghfghkhkljh,kjsfduqiruwjfsa(di na ako nakinig)

konting gupit dito..gupit jan..tsik..tsak..tsik..tsik..tsik..yan na lang ang naririnig ko..at parang unti unti na akong nghihina..tsik..tsak pa rin..tigil..putol na tenga ko.! jowk lang..tapos na..and presto.! tapos na..may pinahid rin daw xang parang oil na ewan..pero sa tingin ko eh dinasalan ung oil ng mga bakla para humaba agad ung hair mo at magpapagupit ka ulit next week..

the result..
xempre sabi nila maganda daw..xempre di ako maniniwala..sinasabi lang nila un para di ako magpakalbo..hehehehe